How to Resolve Cancer Cells - Cell Panic Theory

 Welcome to my first post of nonsense. Maybe to you, it sounds like nonsense, but removing most logical technicalities aside will allow it to make sense. The title or the content might not make sense, but then again, that's all up to you. I present to you today the notes I have kept with me from March 12, 2008. They're pretty detailed and confusing, so I'll rephrase it here  to make it less confusing for the audience. If you have anything to say then please don't hesitate to leave a comment below.

    Evolution allows certain species to survive, and others to die out. Well, if you're reading this, then obviously you're part of the surviving lineage, even though I don't know how long you can still live. However, have you ever wondered what part of our genetic stuff makes us more special than others? Well, if I have to put it into words, the surviving lineage is clearly the group that wanted to survive more than others.

   Death is no big deal if you accept the fate of mortality. Do you know what it is? It's 100% my friend. The likelihood of dying had always been possible and unavoidable. So far I don't know anyone that can avoid death, yet, even if we're scientifically advanced, I doubt anyone can avoid death. Nor do we want to avoid death. Reason? It's because we're not afraid of death. We're afraid of torture. Mentioning death, people imagine all the scenarios of "ways that leads to death". That itself is not death. It's the process that leads to death. Get this straight- death is death. It's when the body function is gone and the soul is out. You can embellish it all you want. All the scary things that come with death is not death itself. What am I getting at here? Many people have not been given the appropriate guidance or breaks whether mentally and emotionally. When life hits you with unforeseen circumstances, many will orient their mindset towards the end of their life ---of suffering. This mindset takes form in depression and slowly but possibly can turn to something called "cancer".

   Cancer is some serious business. I'm not mocking any part of it, but it's most often caused by the individual's will. You chose it, and you don't want to turn back. If you inherited it, then it was your ancestor's will. It was passed down and was never resolved. You the inheritor has the obligation to resolve it. It's literally a job of saving the world; your own world of your own universe of cells, united together to form your body. If you can't resolve it, then nobody can. Sure you can cut it out and/or use some harsh chemical treatment to "cure" it. Even if the surgery is successful, there's no guarantee that your descendants won't inherit the unresolved disorder.

  Each of your cell devoted its whole life to serve you, hoping you'll guide it in the right direction. They willingly let themselves get destroyed, and recycled, then renewed again. If any of that sh** was done to us, destroyed and recycled, we would literally sh** our pants. Oh wait, we are like our cells. Think carefully about what I said. We are given birth, then we age and then.... we die. Yea that was it. It doesn't matter how others decide to dispose of our body, but we do contribute back to the environment we "leeched" from. We could become fertilizer for the soil again. Our bones will contribute calcium back to the ocean, or wherever it goes. Our flesh will contribute nitrogen back to the soil since the proteins that builds our muscles are compounds of amino acids made of nitrogen compounds. Then plants grow on it and other people eat it to survive.......OK, too much science for some of you, but you get the point. We are just like cells. We do get destroyed and recycled. We all prefer death. It's because it's a natural cycle we follow. Well, don't get me wrong, I don't mean you should kill yourself by any means. However, you unconsciously kill yourself........ in the form of cancer.

   Cancer is basically cells disobeying the orders of the central will, in other words, us. We all have a soul, but if you decide to have everything self automate with negativity, then you'll cause cancer. An uncaring owner of a body doesn't deserve a body, because it's just simple karma. If you think back to our normal life and death cycle, the same thing happens. The planet we live on had caused many deaths of us with "natural disasters" such as earthquakes, volcanoes, hurricanes, tsunamis, and whatever you can name. Due to karma, we as living things have revenge back on this planet by causing wars, pollution, and many other internal conflicts. A body without a central will to guide all the cells will lead it to destruction because the cells' "will" is stronger than its owner. In the case of cancer, those cells don't think they have an owner.

    What you have to do is realize the direction of your faith, or "comfort pocket", and guide it in the right path. We all eventually die, and we have faith in that. If that's your strongest faith, then good luck to your trip to the other world. If you still want to live, then you'll have to develop a faith stronger than your faith in death. That's the only way to combat cancer. A peaceful universe will follow a peaceful cycle, and a person, or any other living thing with faith in the right direction will have a body that won't refuse orders. It's all about guidance, and unity. Nothing more, nothing less. I wish you good luck my unfortunate reader.

How To Become The Most Perfect Person In This World

    Nobody's perfect right? I write about nonsense, so this is something you'll have to learn to accept. Today we talk about how to become best "you" in the world. If you have anything to say then please don't hesitate to leave a comment below.



    Everybody has heard of the phrase, "nobody's perfect". Good line. So why is that? I don't know, why are you looking at me, the writer for the answer? I can lead you to the answer. Hopefully as I write this, and as you read this, we can find the answers along the way.

    Perfection is a pretty abstract word if you don't attach something tangible to it. Like for example, a profession like a perfect scientist. Lets ignore all the fields of science out there like biology, chemistry, physics. Our first example will just focus on this dude who's a scientist. If we pushed our imaginations out a little bit to the extreme and wonder about how a perfect scientist look, behave, talk, and live then what would we imagine? All good scientists uses the scientific approach, so lets start from there to figure out what a perfect scientist is like. Scientific approach is roughly in this format:

1. make a question, 
2. take a guess at what the answer might be
3. do some trial and error to prove it
4. finally give the right answer after all that hard work

    If you do that, then you're a scientist. Whoa, holy cow, then aren't we all scientists? Imagine how often you use that method to figure out how to use a computer, a program, can opener, your parents' allowance, and your private genitals. Well, most of us are "scientists" by nature after all, that's why we made so many discoveries like noodles and anti gravity belts. However, some of us enjoy approaching our life this way instead:

1. There's a problem
2. Do whatever
3. Hope for the answer to show up

    Now don't get me wrong. I believe that both approaches are absolutely correct. The scientific approach just happens to organize it so that you cover ALL the variable trial and errors to get the answer. The other instinctual approach relies on comfort pocket, and feeling. Most often then not, most of our problems can be solved easily with the instinctual approach. Even the scientific approach isn't perfect for all problems. For example, ever heard of aspartame the sugar substitute. Yea it's rumored to be carcinogenic, but that's not the point right now. Did you know that scientists discovered aspartame by ACCIDENT? They weren't even researching any sugar substitutes. They were doing some other kind of bacteria experiment. In fact, there was no process of trial and error that they went through to find which chemical compound taste sweet to our tongue, because it simply just happened. Most often then not, most of our profound discoveries are made this way. Scientific method is simply a "safer" method to find our answers. It is definitely not the fastest way.  This brings us to a dilemma here. Perfect scientists should be able to find perfect solutions right? Yet to be perfect, they have to use the scientific approach to back it up, because our society demands "proof" and "data" for everything. Scientists can't just say they did "whatever" and got the answer, and hope it sells. They have to prove it with intense amounts of hard core data. Perfect scientists has to be able create great solutions to problems like motorcycles that can fly, birds that cooks themselves and flies into your plate, or air materializing broccoli for you to eat, and other things that you can imagine. However, a regular scientist following the scientific approach pretty leads a very slow progress, making you unable to enjoy the fruits of their hard effort within a 10 to 20 years time frame or even longer.

    So in other words a perfect scientists will have to be brilliant at creating great stuff, creating it fast, and proving they did it correctly with data and research that takes years to finish. The conclusion is that perfect scientists has to be fast and slow and the same time. Slow to collect hard core and concise data, and fast to create brilliant discoveries (or else how are they perfect?). I'm pretty sure you already see what I'm getting at, and I'm also sure that you think that I'm playing with words to confuse you. If you're not convinced at the implied conclusion I just made, then lets have another example.

    Perfection is a type of extreme. Let's discuss another type of extreme so that you can see the abstract idea I'm describing. Lets say there's this politician that found a genie (assuming genies are real and they can grant wishes). He wished the genie can grant him the ability to read minds, see the present, and past, and has eternal youth and has all the power in the world. Let's assume that his wish came true. If you were him, do you know how he would feel? I can tell you. He would feel absolutely BORED. You ever tried played a game with cheats? Cheating so that you are in god mode and nothing can kill you? Yea, that's the feeling. It's the same feeling you get when you are trying to dominate the air and weeds around you. Why do people want so much power in the first place? To enjoy their life of course so that nobody can push them around. With this man's ability to read minds, see the past, and the future, and unlimited youth he would no longer be able to enjoy pleasure. The reason is because pleasure happens when we play games to feel the emotional edge of struggling between our ability and the unknown. We want to be "surprised" by something, similar to roller coaster rides in amusement parks.  If we already knew the outcome, and our victories are guaranteed all the time, then we will no longer want to play those games. That same politician from the example earlier will most likely desire the ability to be "surprised", but yet he's all knowing, so how can he be surprised by anything? Let's assume he can use the genie to disable his original wish of power, but at the same time desire not to let go of all his invincibility. Desiring invincibility and all knowing ability while desiring pleasure is a clear contradiction of desires. In other words, the most perfectly powerful person in this world doesn't exist. How can anyone be powerful, if they can't feel good?

    Perfection itself doesn't exist not because you can't reach a "perfection in skill", but it's because we can't be a perfect roundabout to satisfy everything. If you're perfectly rounded out then you won't have edges, but if your life is rounded out balanced, then you can't be perfect. There is always something you have to give up if you desire one thing. It's all the more true for emotional beings like us. It's like desiring for the perfectly strong hand in the world that feels no pain, yet at the same time desiring that same hand to have the ability to feel the most subtle sensation in the world. Even if you had a genie, your wish will never be able to be granted.

    Realizing what perfection literally is, and taking responsibility for it, has already lead you to one type of perfection that everybody has. That would be peace. Anything living being in this world has the ability to have perfect peace of mind, and harmony with the environment. When you realize that you are valuable and comfortable with your goal and role in life, then you are perfect.

Poem - How to Recover From a Loss

                Enjoy your poem of nonsense

Loss is like a cup of tea
That had lost its reviving heat
The beauty you used to see
Appears in the blue skies that you'll meet
There are days when muddy clouds die away
And the sunlight shines, promising to stay
My eyes suddenly open
For the very first time

Tomorrow is simply another day
At present, nothing matters - -
Because the present will remain
Thinking back to my actions
What was I meant to be?
Was it for him?
Was it for her?
Was it for me?
No, it was for that bird
that I currently see
flying elegantly then disappears
like my past in a blink of an eye

Goals are safe
Choices are pains
Without expectations
My heart is free
My new horizon
Can be anywhere
Can be anyone
Can be anything
My stomach growled
I laughed
Because I am alive
I will find new horizons
When old ones are gone

Do People Close to You Repeat a Pattern of Negative Feedback? - Selfish Motivation Variation

     Nonsense are not meant to be negative and I'll do my best to maintain neutrality in this topic. Don't worry, this is all nonsense so nobody was really hurt =P. If you have anything to say, please don't hesitate to leave a comment below.

    "It's been a long time". Recently, I hear myself saying that a lot. It's a way I try to feel nostalgic about my historical time line by letting old memories flash through my head multiple times. That's cool, because I think that cherishing our timeline, no matter what happened is important since it made us who we are, in other words- our comfort pockets. However, no matter where I go, who I meet, same patterns repeat themselves over and over again. Now, why is that?

    In case my audience forgot let me remind you that I'm a guy, and I am straight. What does that mean? It means I like women. I happen to have dated many women in the past, and no it doesn't mean that I have resourceful dating wisdom, because it simply doesn't reach that conclusion. The reason is because all of those experiences were painful to recall. After so many years of these experiences, I have finally concluded that I have issues, or maybe I just happen to run into plenty of incompatible women through some weird twist of fate. I can even show you a formula of what always happens whenever I date. It goes something like this:

1. I meet a woman I like and we talk
2. She thinks I am funny (I'm guessing. Let's just assume I can read her mind for this piece of writing's sake)
3. We date a few times
4. She was happy, cool, and funny at first
5. Then she talks less, acts cold, sneezes more (okay maybe they don't all sneeze more)
6. I feel disappointed and I ignore them as a reaction to their behaviors
7. We never talk again and I search for someone else that might be more compatible

  Clearly, it's not any of the women's fault because this pattern repeats ALL the time. Well, sometimes I will ask them why they suddenly become cold. They give me some reasons like I don't pursue them enough, buy gifts, prove myself through their test. Those answers are obviously a part of their comfort pockets created by their experiences, and beliefs so I don't even bother asking them anymore for answers. Most often I don't understand myself very well, so I don't expect anybody else to be able to. If I continue to pursue them for an answer, then it's analogical to asking an uneducated janitor about the history of mops and brooms. Both of us won't reach a satisfying conclusion.

   This doesn't only happen in my daily life. It happens in my social circles, family, and even my closest friends. For the sake of this piece of writing, I'll call myself the "victim" in all those situations. Yes, you can conclude that people who behaves that way towards me probably had a reason, or they are uncomfortable with me. Yes, I completely agree with you, but that's outside the scope of this piece of writing. We are only going to focus on the reasons I keep stimulating this pattern from the environment around me. Without other components, there's only one conclusion we can make here, and that would be selfish motivation.

   As I mentioned in my previous articles, selfish motivation is the only form of motivation we all have that allows us to do great things. When you reach the ultimate form of your selfish motivation, you will also reach true altruism. The reason is because you are so satisfied with the way you live that you will find it too difficult not to share with others since everything is an excess to you. If you want to read about it then go ahead here to get a feel of what it is. So how does selfish motivation relate with my problem? Is it a problem with my selfish motivation or the women I chased after?

   The problem is from both of us. The women that I met had their selfish motivation triggered by the selfish motivation of my own. It's undeniable that everybody wants recognition and appreciation for their own existence. Nobody is an exception. People I meet see the potential in the new connection that I can form with them (potential can go in all directions, including doing harm). Meeting somebody for the first time always creates, for both of us a subconscious expectation that there's some "potential" for further development due to this meeting/ relationship (does not have to be sexual). This is enough to trigger a selfish motivation in someone. For example, my selfish motivation for meeting a girl can be for her to be my girlfriend.  She would agree to this development if she agrees to my intentions. If she has no selfish motivation for that to happen, then she'll simply disagree, and the relationship is ruined. That's the reason why girls turn cold after they've been nice to you for a while. They enjoy your company in the beginning but realized that they wanted to stay in the "friend zone". Since your selfish motivation conflicts with her's, the relationship becomes detached. This is the ultimate reason why the problem is from both of us, yet it's not at the same time. Neither one of us is at fault. If things turns out this way, it simply wasn't meant to be. Her selfish motivation simply didn't find the possibility of developing a deeper relationship between us, and that's fine.
 This is the key reason why people blood-related to you or those in "close" relationship with you might repeat a pattern of negative feedback. You both don't have a mutual motivation for keeping up a good relationship. For example, some parents (not all) will find their children useless and unimportant to their existence.They have clearly little to no motivation to raising their children. They could feel that having children is many more times an expense than a profit. Some parents I know look at their child like a stack of bills or wrinkle cream (that causes wrinkle). In these scenarios, parents will look at their child as a mistake or "the condom broken at the wrong moment" or some other negative analogy. These children are often abandoned or heavily neglected in different ways. However, there are parents that appreciate their own children and treasure their existence more than their own lives. In their case, motivation for raising their children is their love for them. For there to be no patterns of negative feed backs in relationship, people have to find reasons and motivations for being together positively.
 
    If society's standard of selfish motivation have reached its ultimate state, then we will all live in true state of peace and harmony, because we will all not hesitate to help each other out. Why? It's because people are so satisfied emotionally, mentally, and passionately that everything becomes an excess to them. They are so content that these things don't matter to them anymore. It is the most fair, advanced, and powerful form of trade between everybody.

    Meeting someone is only a shallow form of connection that anybody can form. Just saying "hi" to someone can already trigger this. Your selfish motivation for forming such a temporary connection might be for the sake of asking for time, to feel good afterwards, or to make a friend. If you say "I said hi cause I felt like it", then that's still a selfish motivation because you're doing something for a return of a satisfying feeling. Connections are necessary with people you meet or else the relationship will not work, because there's no comfort pocket formed. In that case there will be no reason for the two different individuals to stay together beyond some form of formality like "boyfriend" or " father". In this case, the relationship is more of an obligation instead of a selfish motivation. If this happens to you then you will always feel a certain distance with people "close" to you.

   To conclude this piece of writing. We all have selfish motivations to pursue a more powerful form of connection that helps us appreciate our very form of existence in this world. This also applies to people we try to connect with. If your comfort pocket don't include any form of technique that can be used to comprehend other people's selfish motivation, then your existence will always be outside other people's needs. People who don't have the reason to stay with you will not be with you.  It's always important to polish your feelings, personality, and emotions, be the best of who you are with the potential given to you by the heavens. Use this to form the best selfish motivation inside your comfort pocket.