Here's some nonsense about my family. I have a great family, but there are still plenty of things I don't like about it. But then again, if you like everything, then how can you distinguish between what you like and don't like? If you were me, would you still hate the same things you did or would you change your mind? =p If you have anything to say then please don't hesitate to leave a comment below.
I have a younger sibling. Actually, two. They're both very intelligent for their age. It could have been the way I brought them up, or they developed on their own flow of fate. I don't know. But one thing I know for sure. I miss their past.
Let's call my siblings Tom and Harry for now. Tom is the older brother, and Harry is the younger brother. They haven't been happy for a very long time, since birth. Reason? Is it starvation? No, it's not. Is it the loss of a family member? Nah, we're all still healthy. Is it because of trauma, like some kind of car accident? Not at all. They're just sad, because two simple reasons that plagues everybody in this world. Fear, and boredom.
These two emotions are very dangerous. People look down on it, and might consider it to be rather simply. With all four of your limbs intact, mentally normal, and a healthy family, then what else can make you sad and bored? Okay, you got it all wrong. People who are handicapped are not sad. Excuse me if you think I'm wrong. People who are handicapped only feel sad, because everyone close around them are most often 'normal'. Remember, there are ways to regenerate your body. It's just a manifestation based on your will, according to my previous writings. Somehow, having two upper limbs, two lower limbs, face forward, eyes forward became a standard in our world. Yes, according to my genetic code, I'm still only interested in mates that have those minimum features. It'll take who knows how many generations for our descendants to think otherwise. Remember, we EVOLVED to become this way. If someone looks down on your for something, (in my case, I was mentally handicapped), then it's their business. You just have to learn to accept it. If you distract yourself too much, then you'll miss a lot of things in life. Anyway, back to the two emotions. Fear and boredom are dangerous. All the crimes in this world are committed based on these two emotions. If you can imagine otherwise, then well, I don't know, how? You have to understand something very important. It's not only important to recognize someone plagued by fear and boredom. It's practically MANDATORY. If you don't, that other one might become your worst enemy in the future. If these two emotions plague you, then you have to handle it too.
Since Tom and Harry were young, I've been training them like a teacher, helping them jump out of these two dangerous emotions. Don't get me wrong. These two emotions are completely necessary. Fear develops logic, and boredom develops curiosity. These two emotions come with their own prize in the first place. But like anything in this world, too much of anything is always a bad thing. Bad as in, 'not worth the price you pay'. These two understand what it means to live. You don't have to prove anything to anybody. You don't necessarily have to fight against proving anything by accident. If you did something that looked bad to your family, it's no big deal. Figure out if it was really bad or not, and move on. If you hate your family and did something good to satisfy them by accident, still no big deal, just move on. Tom and Harry understand that true intelligence is not based on other people as reference points. You're not babies anymore. Nobody needs to put an electric sign telling you exactly what to do. That's what everybody does accidentally. Introverted people think that it's okay to follow everyone's directions then they'll get something in return as a promise. Delinquents, and punks thinks life is okay as long they break every rule that exist out where, as a proof of strength. Neither of those two extremes of people are proving anything. In the end, they're both going to be sad people. I would never let Tom and Harry live their life without understand peace and joy.
However, I haven't thought it out so well until recently. I only partially knew what I was doing. Sometimes, I'm even afraid that Tom and Harry are too close to me, and end up being fairly difficult to cope by themselves. As I distant them, I feel more pain, because I miss their innocent pasts. Until more recently I realized that, I don't dislike their growth. Their intelligence will automatically find them happiness. My interference will just destroy future. I eventually realize that I cherish my memories of our pasts together, not cherishing the events. I also realize that cherishing the moment now is also cherishing the past in preparation of the future. Living with no regret, is something that I always keep in mind. Making them gain accelerated intelligence is one of my biggest regrets, yet it's also my best gift to them for their future. If they end up suffering in the future, because I don't want them to lose their original innocence, then I'll just end up with more pain in the future watching them suffer. In the end, I made the best choice. They also made their best choices.
To sum it up. I appreciate the way they are now. I also appreciate the way I developed as a person, even though I made plenty of mistakes in the past. If I was given another chance to time travel to the past to 'correct' everything again, I will leave it alone. It's important to who I am now.
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