I haven't wrote nonsense for a while. This one will be about your own form of 'moral'. If you were faced with an impossible decision, what would you do? If you have anything to say then please don't hesitate to leave a comment below.
Many movies, and stories have made fun of impossible choices. They reveal a lot of hypocrites, heroes, and morons. To me, those are just names. There are times, when the jokes on you, the victim of the event, rather than just being a passive spectator. At those times, even the lamest horror scenes you've seen in movies will be extremely scary. In other words, in real life, even the most minor decisions, can be very difficult to solve.
There's been things bothering me in the past about my nature. I used to think I'm a 'nice' person, but clearly, that's very far from the truth. I'm super selfish. As for people I know, it's also the same. Selfish isn't a bad thing itself. If we're not, then it means we don't have self interests. If we don't, then we won't be reincarnated. For now, having a selfish interest will help others.
It's a double edge sword, but that's what we all decided upon when we set 'foot' in this reality. Sometimes we forget that we want 'nothing' in the first place, and suddenly decided to want 'something'. It becomes more complicated when we do many things in a work-around method to get what we want. That also includes doing 'good' for others. In the end, we all do it to make ourselves feel good.
It feels even better if it involves other people's appreciation. In fact, everybody I know depends on others appreciation. My meaning of appreciation is an 'emotional reaction'. Everybody aims for those. It becomes more interesting because everybody has their own standards of 'good feeling', so it becomes even more interesting to get another person's interests when his or hers is far different from yours.
When it comes to that, we always confuse our own selfish needs with 'truly for the sake of others'. In other words, your source of faith has been cleverly secured before a fake picture. Before that picture becomes a true comfort pocket, the fake face will always be face. For example, let's say that there's someone in danger. You save them even if it means risking your life a little. You're heroic right? Well, that's uncertain.
Let's say you're in danger, and you'll involve close ones if you let them stay close by. You try to trick your close ones so they feel that you're not worth caring for and flees without you. You're heroic right? That's still uncertain.
Let's say you're in danger (again), and you'll involve a close lover if you let her stay close by. You decided to trick your lover that you're not worth caring for, neutralize her feelings for you, and set up a no-fail plan for her to fall in love with another guy, and suck up all the sadness that you hold inside, then you're heroic right? That's still uncertain.
Whoa, wait a minute there. That was overkill right? Why is it uncertain? The reason is because nobody asked you to decide. Whether you kept your close ones by your side, or driven them away, you did it for your own selfish feelings. It was either guilt and fear, or lust and obsession. If you can't surpass those, then the decision you made is probably never going to be the best. There is a middle ground.
If they decide to stay, let them stay, but if they decide to leave, let them leave. Pushing into either extreme because of fear, has never been a form of true altruism. In the end, you just want to hurt someone to make yourself feel better.
To sum it up, nature flows by itself. Even if you can control it, it's just a form of inferior control that allows you to go from your living room to your bathroom. It's never a very big leap.
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