Here's a post about our daily nonsense. This nonsense involves you, as a reader too. It's about making decisions. Question of the day is, "do you always make the right decisions?" If you have anything to say then please don't hesitate to leave a comment below.
Ever regret making any choices? Well, I sure have. I mean, it's pretty weird not to regret anything. However, I've once pondered if I'll change my decisions if I have gotten a chance to start over, and my answer was a definite no. There might be minor changes, like avoiding an embarrassing confession or something like that, but when it comes to major life decisions, I would still take the same path no matter how other people look at me. Why do people look down on me? The reason is because the choices I make always involves a sacrifice or a price to pay to keep it up.
There are three or more major things I've given up on temporarily to retain what I want the most right now. First thing, I still live with my parents. It's not an easy thing to do, because this decision always impact on the relationships I've had in the past,( and I'm talking about the "guy and girl" kind). I'm telling you, so far there's not that many positive results hohoho. It makes me a social cancer. Second thing, I've given up on working outside. Even if I do, I can only earn enough to satisfy myself. Barely enough for anything. But I don't want to satisfy myself. I want people around me to be happy. My whole family looks down on me, because I still don't self support for my age. Even I feel pain hearing words like that. I have no excuses either because it's a social recognition that I should be self support at this age, oh right, 24 years old by the way, about to turn 25 years old. However, I am waiting for my chance to show up.
Is this chance I'm talking about perhaps some kind of lottery, or having recognition from my family to do what I want? No, not really. That's probably not happening. I'm talking about my will to succeed. I'm keeping it strong every day no matter how many words or suggestions I get from others. That is the will to save the world. Truthfully, that's what I want to do the most, and what's the point of saving it if I don't include my current family. Many people can't stand their family's controls, or parents' verbal abuse. I can visualize the future with my training, so I know what it will feel like to lose them. There's an end to everybody. I want to be by their side when it happens. I believe a truly strong person will be able to stay beside things they cherish the most, not simply because others recommend the other way. Everybody has their own definitions of strength, but for me, this is rather important. I want to save the world, build a foundation of information that can raise everybody's intelligence to the maximum, and I want to keep my family's existence within my range at the same time. Most people I know can't keep their will sharp with their family's interference, and end up regretting the lost of them years later because they were too far out of reach. The freedom, harassment, and humiliation is the price I pay to be able to do two conflicting things at the same time. Can you do it? Do you have the courage to be harassed by unwritten social rules?
The will to succeed is still under my absolute control, because I don't want to get swayed by other people's beliefs and karma. If my friends don't agree with me, it doesn't mean I don't consider him/her a friend, but I'll have no choice but to give him/her up for the time being. If my girlfriend doesn't agree with me, then it'll be the same thing. I can only exist once in this life. Certain decisions will require a certain amount of commitment. Being the same as everybody else isn't such a bad thing, but it's not my thing.
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